Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Apologies...



...for not keeping up with the blog much, of late. I guess this is as good a time as any to announce that I've got a book in the works, to be published by Nine-Banded Books. I'll try and keep you up to date as things progress. Take care, one and all. Oh, and there was something else I wanted to say...what was it? Oh, yeah! Don't procreate!

UPDATE: And a timely update, it is...hehehe! Anyway, I thought I'd offer a very short teaser. Here it is...


Hope is my enemy. She is a succubus who descends upon sleeping humankind, whispering in their collective ear that there IS a future. A bright future, as a matter of fact; as long as we persevere in extending our essences through the lives of our children, and through their children. She is a liar, a snakeoil salesman bartering chimera for generative fluid, which she sucks out of us before casting our withered husks onto the fire. And so we fall, row upon row like seasons of corn, but not until we relinquish our seed into her exploitive hands. For in the end, we all die, and only Hope lives on. And we rot, sometimes mourned for a season, but presently forgotten. Ultimately, and like it or not, we are the future's dirt. THIS is the state of affairs we choose to subject our children to.


This is the reality I chose to bring MY children into.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Happy Father's Day to Me

Actually, it's a bittersweet day for this father. My older daughter moved to Los Angeles yesterday. She's landed a job as administrative liaison for the special education department of an L.A. Highschool. Straight out of college just last week, too! (allow a father his bragging rights). Do I wish she had never been born? Yes. No. Maybe. This is the problem in dealing with the question after you've already done the deed. Of course I love her, and have cherished her presence in my life, and to say I wish she'd never existed seems harsh even to me. But ask me the question a different way. Am I glad my third child, the one who was never conceived, was never brought into existence? My answer is an unequivocal 'YES!', and the difference between my two answers sums up all I've written about on this blog.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Is the Door to Negative Bliss Painted Green?


I see that Marilyn Chambers has recently passed on (man, I don't keep up with the news for shit!). The woman who singlehandedly(sic) kept several major tissue manufacturers afloat during the 1970's recession, and who also answered the perennial conundrum of 'How much wood...?' in her own, singular (or should I say, multiple) fashion. RIP, babycakes. You finally achieved that final 56/100% you were shooting for. And if there IS an afterlife, I'm sure everybody's really happy to see you!

Monday, May 4, 2009

On a Crowded Street

I was thinking the other night about how some of us feel hemmed in at times. Attacked- not so much from any specific corner; just pressed at from the atmospheric pressure, I guess. Sometimes it feels like smothering. Anyway, I wrote this to make myself feel a little better. I was thinking about psychological escape hatches at the time...

On a Crowded Street

It can fade to white noise, this tumult
of ten thousand pointed feet. Centered

in the gravity well of the mass,
the boiling oil of fixed attention

pours down upon the escalade. Nix
in the midst of numbers, in between

the clamorers and heedless idle-
sanctuary! A portal set in

the drifting stone, clandestine adit
beckoning to the keyholder who

is truly lost beyond hiding, far
from home, awake in the middle of

a nightmare. Whichever way one turns,
whatever square yard one happens to

occupy, hegira extends his
grasp. Offer your hand. Accept the gift.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Tragedy

A few hours ago, a 15 year old boy was hit by a train a block from the local high school. The body was still on the tracks when my daughter and her mother passed through. Of course, such catastrophes in their thousand permutations will be repeated every few seconds on this planet. I mention this fact not to minimize the horror of this particular incident, but to heighten the reader's awareness of the universality of tragedy both in essence, and in the concomitant reverberations that will assuredly fan out and engulf those who love and care. Even now I await with dread the release of the child's name for fear that I knew him, or that my daughter knew him. But why should that matter? I know for a fact that for several people today, the sun has fallen from the sky, and may never return. That is enough, and too much.

To the parents and others with close emotional ties, I'm sorry. I wish I could make it better, but I can't. The best I can offer is my belief that he is now at peace. He's returned to where he came from, as all of us do, eventually. It may seem that his life was unfairly cut short; but remember, that's only from our perspective. For the child, all worry, all fear and pain have ceased to exist. He sleeps the most pleasant of all sleeps, untroubled by bad dreams, schedules, and anxiety about the future. His peace is pure, and will last forever.

Rest in peace, young man. I hope your short sojourn here was relatively pleasant.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Truth in Advertising


Sunday, April 12, 2009

Thanks!

Occasionally when reading back over your comments, I find myself getting all schmaltzy and shit, and feeling the need to reach out and give everybody a big group hug. I've never learned the trick of swallowing my cynicism whole, and often find myself moved by the passion I sense behind your missives. It resonates with my own. Hang in there, my friends, and spread the message each in your own way. Different ears respond to different voices, and each of us has something relevant to say on the matter. Thank you for your efforts born out of empathy, and an understanding of the stakes.

So, there you go.